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I remembered LiveJournal again [Mar. 18th, 2013|12:07 am]

I found this thing on Tumblr, and I thought I would repost it here (maybe I should get a Tumblr?).



  • Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!

  • Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!

  • Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!

  • Expectation: Hey, I think I feel pretty good!

  • Expectation: I guess that means I'm normal now! Time to go live a normal life!

  • ---------------------------------

  • Reality: I feel terrible.

  • Reality: I still feel terrible.

  • Reality: Is this seriously "recovery?" This sucks.

  • Reality: I don't want to be thinking about all of this shit, this is exhausting.

  • Reality: I guess today's not so bad.

  • Reality: Today is bad again.

  • Reality: Today is bad, but I think I'm starting to understand why.

  • Reality: Wow, how long has it been since I cleaned my room?

  • Reality: Cleaning my room didn't make me feel any better, but hey, room's clean.

  • Reality: Whoa, okay, I need a shower. And maybe a haircut? Definitely a haircut.

  • Reality: Everything sucks.

  • Reality: Okay, except you.

  • Reality: And you too, I didn't mean that you sucked.

  • Reality: And that thing that I like is pretty cool.

  • Reality: What was I talking about?

  • Reality: Oh, THAT'S why my ex broke up with me.

  • Reality: Wow, it turns out that was totally my fault?

  • Reality: I was the jackass.

  • Reality: Holy shit, I am such a jackass.

  • Reality: Everybody must hate me.


  • Reality: Okay, how could everybody hate me? I mean, even if I'm a jackass, the Law of Averages dictates that SOMEBODY out there would probably like me anyway.

  • Reality: Why would everybody hate me anyway, I'm awesome.

  • Reality: ...I'm not that awesome.

  • Reality: Sometimes I'm pretty awesome, though.




  • Reality: ...What the hell was that about?

  • Reality: Anyway, gonna get stuff done.

  • Reality: Gonna get stuff done

  • Reality: Getting stuff done


  • Reality: WALLOWING


  • Reality: Okay NO MORE WALLOWING, we've talked about this, we're not doing this right now.

  • Reality: ...I can't believe that worked.

  • Reality: Huh.

  • Reality: So hang on, is this it?

  • Reality: I mean, is this recovery? Am I doing this right? Is it going to be over soon?

  • Reality: I just want to be normal.

  • Reality: I am such a ridiculous trainwreck of a human being. How do I even exist? Why do I get to have friends? Why do you people talk to me? There's so much about myself that I really don't like, and there's probably even more stuff that I don't even know about that isn't too hot, either. And I'm working on it, but man, it's hard.

  • Reality: ...I just realized that everything I just said is normal.

  • Reality: Oh my God, am I already normal?


  • Reality: It's...not exactly everything I was hoping for, to tell you the truth.

  • Reality: ...Oh well.

  • Reality: Today was okay.

  • Reality: Maybe tomorrow will be better.

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Persepolis was assigned reading in an English class. So I wrote this. [May. 11th, 2011|11:05 pm]
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If you liked Persepolis, you may also enjoy:

Maus: A Survivor's Tale, by Art Spiegleman
"Aren't comics just for kids?" Maus won a Pulitzer, discussion over. Spiegleman recounts the parallel stories of how his father Vladek survived the Holocaust, and how he survived his father. Most direct analogue (precursor) to Persepolis.

Fun Home: A Family Tragicomic, by Alison Bechdel
As Persepolis followed Maus, so Fun Home follows Persepolis. Bechdel is the author of long-running alternative comic strip Dykes to Watch Out For, a sort of Doonesbury for the GLBTQ landscape. Here, Bechdel leaves aside politics to focus on her relationship with her father, who died shortly after she discovered he was gay. In its investigation of family history after a death, Fun Home also bears some resemblance to Jane: a Murder.

Blankets, by Craig Thompson
Thompson recounts his growing up and coming of age in a very conservative religious environment– not the Iran of Persepolis, but midwestern America. This lushly-illustrated tome pairs the auto-bio-comic form with the lingering detail of a work like A Moveable Feast.

Mind Riot: Coming of Age in Comix, edited by Karen D. Hirsch
This anthology (collection of short works by different authors) deals with the trials and traumas of a wide spectrum of teenage experiences. Sort of a "sample platter" of alternative comics ("comix"), there's something in this book for almost any reader to find meaningful. No longer in print, but well worth tracking down used. Hirsch also includes a helpful bibliography with additional reading suggestions.
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Community, "Political Developments and Uncivil Disobedience" [Feb. 26th, 2011|02:17 pm]
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Here's what scrolled by on the ticker during the "news show" portions of this week's episode of Community. That ninth one (italics mine) has me worried...

- Don't Forget to Study For Finals.
- Remember to Add or Drop Classes.
- Band Practice Cancelled Due to Futu…
- …burns: "My Name is Alex."
- Human Being Mascot: Offensive to Animals? More at 8
- Chess Club Moves Meeting Unexpectedly, Refuses to Reveal Why
- Basketball Team Loses Ball
- Chicken Finger Shortage Continues
- Professor Slater Still Missing
- "No Paintball This Spring" Claims Dean. Students Prot…
- …r Tater Not? Full Story at 7
- Starburns: "My Name is Alex"
- Human Being Mascot: Offensive to Animals? More at 8
- Chess Club Moves Meeting Unexpectedly, Refuses…
- School Dance Rate Down 200%
- Reports Continue of Mysterious "Air Vent Monster".
- Dean Suggests End Of Year Picnic, Implies "Western Theme".
- Dr. Ian Duncan Quits Drinking Again
- Tickers: Do We Watch Them? Story at 12
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No Ordinary Family [Oct. 5th, 2010|12:46 am]
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Whenever I write more than one tweet about a subject, I figure I really ought to just knock it off and post to LiveJournal instead.

So I watched the pilot episode of ABC's new show "No Ordinary Family", which is a free download from iTunes at the moment. I liked it.

It's clearly the product of the Pixar film "The Incredibles", which is very good, and the NBC TV series "Heroes", which started out strong and then just fell to pieces. If the Incredibles side of No Ordinary Family's lineage can win out over the Heroes side, it'll be a fun show to watch. If the Heroes side wins out, every character named in the pilot will develop super-powers, die tragically, or both; the series will wimp out on its first-season finale and never recover from the suck. Either/or.

Julie Benz plays the female lead. It's good to see her getting work– I know her from her role as Darla on "Angel", and in the very earliest episodes of "Buffy". Her super-speed is done with more visual flair than I can recall seeing in live action before. Michael Chiklis does a very credible job as a live-action interpretation of Mr. Incredible. Their powers are the physical ones, giving me hope for some good Mom & Dad fight scenes while the kids are off at school in the B-plot.

Some girl from the Disney Channel and a kid who looks like every other teenage-boy character on TV are the kids, and they're underdeveloped in the pilot. The son has a learning disability and then (spoiler) develops super-intelligence, which could be a really interesting plot if done well. I'd like to see some Amadeus Cho action out of him (the only comics character I know of to make super-intelligence a visually interesting power). A teenage girl with telepathy, meanwhile, isn't that interesting to me. Buffy took that idea to its logical extreme, and Jean Grey was always the most boring X-Person.

So that's my opinion on "No Ordinary Family": Cautiously guarded optimism. I've set my DVR to record the second episode tonight, and I'm looking forward to it.

Of course, I've got the current (4th) season of "Chuck" and freshman show "Undercovers" queued up on there, in their entirety, completely unwatched. This whole "school" and "having a life" thing is really cutting into my TV time.

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How the iPhone Finder Tracked Wired.Com [May. 2nd, 2010|06:03 pm]
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Wired was able to obtain information on Brian Hogan, the young man (21) who found the 4G iPhone left in a bar, and they wrote about how they did it. I found this interesting for its synopsis of what a modern journalistic process can look like.

Of note to me is that, as I read it, until Hogan's lawyer got nervous and contacted them, they really didn't have anything they could go to press with:

We were convinced Hogan had to be the guy, but we still didn’t have enough to publish a story [...]

Poulsen received a phone call from Hogan’s attorney, Jeffrey Bornstein. He called because Poulsen was apparently “shaking too many branches” (perhaps by trying to add all of Hogan’s Facebook friends). Bornstein acknowledged that he was representing Hogan and agreed to send us a written statement on Thursday afternoon. [...]

Zetter and Poulsen retrieved Bornstein’s statement at 1:30 p.m. Thursday, which stated that Hogan was the finder. They also interviewed the attorney to get as many details about Hogan as they could — everything from his age to his volunteer work at an orphanage. Poulsen sent Bornstein the photo I found, and he confirmed that was indeed Hogan.

And with all that, we finally had enough to break the story with confidence.

So I guess my point here is, don't be so smug, Wired. Suggesting that you might be able to "teach police officers a thing or two" strikes me as, at the very least, a little rude.
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Five-Minute Chocolate Mug Cake: Improved Recipe [Feb. 28th, 2010|08:57 pm]
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[Mood |full]

This is a recipe I found on the Internet during the Snowpocalypse of February 2010 and subsequently modified a little. Be sure not to overcook it, and to eat it while it’s fresh and hot; being cooked in a microwave oven, it can turn a bit rubbery if given too much time.

I like to mix up the first step in plastic bags and mail it in care packages. In one plastic bag I put the dry ingredients already measured & mixed, including the espresso (my addition to the original recipe). The other bag has the chocolate chips, so all you need is an egg, some vegetable oil, a little bit of vanilla extract, and some milk (skim or whole is your call; I’ve been using skim). Oh, and a mug: make sure it’s a big one (16oz-ish) and microwave-safe.

Five-Minute Chocolate Mug Cake
(Serves 2-3)

  • 4 (four) tablespoons flour
  • 4 (four) tablespoons sugar
  • 2 (two) tablespoons cocoa powder
  • 1 (one) teaspoon finely-ground espresso-roast coffee beans (optional)

  • 1 (one) egg
  • 3 (three) tablespoons milk
  • 3 (three) tablespoons vegetable oil
  • a small splash of vanilla extract (I use 1/2 tsp, use more or less as you prefer)

  • 3 (three) tablespoons chocolate chips (optional, but strongly recommended)

  1. In a large mug (16oz-ish), combine the dry ingredients (flour, sugar, cocoa powder, espresso). Mix together until you have an uniform, light-brown powder (I have a very tiny whisk I use for this, but a fork works too).

  2. Add the vegetable oil, milk, egg, and vanilla extract; mix well until it all becomes a smooth, even batter (To me it seems a bit runnier than most cake batters you’d bake in a standard oven, but if your cakes are historically very light, maybe not to you).

  3. Add the chocolate chips and stir just once, if at all (in my experience, with the batter so thin, they’ll tend to all sink to the bottom anyway).

  4. Cook your mug-cake in the microwave for 2 ½ to 3 minutes.

    • This depends on the power of your microwave oven– the original recipe has it for three minutes in an 1000-watt microwave. Mine is 1100 watts, so I cook for about 2:40 (If in doubt, I say undercook it by five seconds or so).

    • During cooking, the mug-cake will rise above the rim of the mug- this is normal! Don’t worry, it won’t spill or explode or anything (Probably).

  5. Turn mug upside-down on a plate and lift it off the cake. Enjoy!
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Return of the Christmas Grinch Mix! [Dec. 2nd, 2009|09:47 pm]
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[Mood |seasonal]
[Music |"December Is for Cynics" by The Matches]

Why, is it December again already? It is! And you know what that means: Christmas music! All the time. Everywhere.

Need something to counteract the toxic levels of saccharine from the muzak of your local mall, coffeehouse, or Hair Cuttery, yet still wish to celebrate the season in your own special way? Well, do I have an answer for you! It's my beautiful, hand-crafted

Christmas Grinch Mix

It's the 2008 edition again, since I kinda burned through my 2009 allocation of music-compiling effort back around Halloween. Also, I haven't got much to add this year that I didn't last time. But if you didn't get it last year, it's new to you anyway! And still way better than that disturbing-ass "Santa Baby" song, right?

Click one of the links below to start downloading a .zip from MobileMe storage. File sizes are identical; the difference is the format of the audio files. I prefer AAC myself, but I know some people find MP3 better suited to their needs. ;-) Each .zip file includes two PDFs, as well: a printable track listing, and a printable CD label (formatted for Avery 8691 labels, or others that use "Template 5931", if you've got 'em around). Links expire 1/1/10.

- Christmas Grinch Mix - 2008 Edition - AAC Format
- Christmas Grinch Mix - 2008 Edition - MP3 Format

Track list under the cutCollapse )

Enjoy, and merry freakin' Christmas!
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A Brief Thought on the Vampire Obsession [Oct. 15th, 2009|10:29 am]
[Music |"Blue Sunny Day" by Jonathan Coulton]

Not an original thought, mind you- don't be silly! This is LiveJournal, there's no room for "original thought" here.

Today's Diesel Sweeties comic, excellent as ever, interested me enough to click through his link to the Esquire piece he based it on, "Vampires as Gay Men" by Stephen Marche. The idea as expressed in the headline is somewhat incomplete, of course, but the article's well done. It highlights the historical idea that vampire fiction has always peaked at times of cultural upheaval, particularly in regards to sexual mores.

And it contains the following sentence: "Vampire fiction for young women is the equivalent of lesbian porn for men: Both create an atmosphere of sexual abandon that is nonthreatening." To me, that rings kinda true. Your thoughts?

Oh, and speaking of sad vampires, hit the link in the music field- a happy little suicidal-nosferatu ditty seems appropriate for this rainy October morning.
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The news is not good today [Aug. 28th, 2009|03:08 pm]
[Mood |disappointed]

Fair warning: if you're already in a bad mood, feeling down or depressed, don't read this entry any further. Head to Cute Overload, or The Comics Curmudgeon; or, as I often do, follow the advice of Lore: "Feeling down? Depressed? Alienated? Just remember these three words. 'I'm somebody's fetish'".

I've come across many disheartening pieces of news today.

The news item which provokes me into the most easily articulated fury, however comes to me- as do most of the best things on this blog- from dear, sweet leofeline. As she noted on her Facebook page, Reading Rainbow is no longer going to air. Reading Rainbow, for longer than I've been alive, has consisted each episode of a proud, articulate, African-American male suggesting a different topic for children to explore through one or more books, available, as he would note, at their library. I can think of few more noble endeavors for public television. However, a bit of searching reveals that the show hasn't produced new episodes since 2006, meaning it's a touch late to start a petition drive now. Saddening. But the meat of the piece- the posited "why" for the show's ceasing to air- is what's really ticking me off.

The article explains that Reading Rainbow has fallen off the funding list because the current sentiment- beginning, says NPR, with the Department of Education under the Bush administration- is that teaching the "how" of reading is more important than teaching the "why" of reading. I could not disagree with this more strongly. I consider it a universal truth of human nature that if you give someone a strong enough "why", they'll find their own damn "how". The earliest awareness of this I can remember came from the Beverly Cleary classic Mitch and Amy (1967). Mitch is a stand-in for every child since who would read nothing but Matt Christopher books, and then only grudgingly. But when his twin sister Amy sneaks him a book their mother doesn't approve of- considering it above his level for reading skill and subject matter- he finds a story he's interested in, and figures out the process of reading just fine on his own. The idea that America has once again lost faith in its own children in this way- and the sinister self-fulfilling prophecy I see in that- is very disheartening to me.

Nyds, you need to start posting those Facebook links on your LJ, too! Looking at the list of what you've posted, you've got some really good ones there, with some great thoughts about them. But I can't link to that list, because people who aren't Facebookquainted with you can't see it; and thus you are deprived of the blogviews and internetulation you so richly deserve. Further sadness.

I have, by the by, been listening lately to the audio novel How to Succeed in Evil- a free audiobook, released as a podcast, about the life of Edwin Windsor, an "Evil Efficiency Consultant", who advises characters like Dr. Lobe and The Cromoglodon how best to make profit from their unique skills and/or lack of scruples. Its plot and themes are like unto an NPR version of Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog, though the actual execution is much lower-class. It's been worth no more than what I paid for it, certainly, but it's kept me entertained in the heavy traffic I've had to deal with often over the past week or so. And it is, by way of explaining why I bring it up, probably the largest contributing factor to the florid, hyperformal prose style I've adopted for this entry.

More florid and hyperformal than usual, I mean.
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Stuff I'm Looking At Today [Jul. 28th, 2009|12:51 pm]
[Location |NVCC Annandale]
[Music |"Trust In You" by The Offspring, off Rise and Fall, Rage and Grace - 3/5]

Just a list of some links I've got my eye on at the moment, so I can quit out of my browser & go to class:

Don't text and drive, kiddies. Stern frowning emoticon. Peace out.
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